Change of Perspective

There are times I’ve had to be reminded to look at a situation, a dilemma, even a relationship that needs a shift – from at least one completely different perspective. I like to think I am open minded and fluid, but too many times I have found myself in a fixed perspective on something. It isn’t helpful when I can only see my predetermined point of view.

Recently I’ve been having some health challenges, ones that were totally unexpected. When I dug in a little deeper, beyond the physical messages I was receiving, there were deep emotional messages as well. Everything was linked to unprocessed emotions from trauma, feelings of helplessness and not being in control, chronic stress and anxiety. When I looked at these past ten years since my husband’s death, leaving my old life behind and wandering liminal space eventually starting a new life – it made sense. Then I changed my perspective to a longer lens of my entire nearly seven decades of life. Some of my early childhood trauma memories were deeply buried, only surfacing in nightmares. Only recently did some of the facts come to life, and I realized I had not yet fully grieved what I experienced. I tried to simply push past it all and go on about my life, business as usual. But sometimes we have to sit in the stillness with ourselves until something starts shifting in a way that lightens a burdensome load.

I never paid too much attention to the chakras, but something inspired me to find a root chakra (the foundational chakra) healing meditation. Within a minute of this half-hour meditation, I was sobbing from the primal depths of me. I was shocked that I had so much purging to do. I am currently working up the chakras in this same manner until another tool presents itself. I am beyond grateful that I heard an internal calling to see my body from another perspective.

And this is not a “one and done” thing. I am keenly aware of some of the choices I must make and act on. More liminal space… and I am finally feeling excited about traversing it.